Did you know??

There's so much question i need to ask you and want you to know... :(

did you know that I secretly cry and tear myself to shreds every night?

did you know that behind my seemingly warm happy eyes lies a broken innocent, ravaged by many sinful hands?

did you know that I loathe you for disposing and abandoning me in this forsaken hell?

did you know that I bleed for you, that I dwell in this eternal pain for you, that you bind me to this duty?

did you know that you intertwined you and I and left me to take care of our withering souls?

did you know that for every smile I forcefully press against my face a slit is placed upon my delicate skin?

did you know that everyday you kill apart of who I am, that every time you scream at my wrenching, contorting face I grow number?

do you even know that I exist anymore?

do you know that for every word you say it pierces my heart and I grow closer to my death?

did you even know or acknowledge when I went to my room and locked my door, when I slowly consumed the various jagged white little pills?

did you know that I did that to escape you because it was the only absolute solution?

do you realize that even as I lay in the plain plush cushions on my bed with an expressionless face, I still hold nothing but contempt for you?

do you finally understand cursed life you burdened on my fragile shoulders? I don't think you do, you will never understand...will you?

:(