Christina Perri - A Thousand Years (Official Music Video)

Love, Love, Love this song!!! Really can't stop listening to this song..so obsessed!! Can't wait for Breaking Dawn part 1 too...argh! im soo excited all of sudden...damn!

My Wedding pics...part 2

My Wedding pics...part 1

Outside the church with family members..

With my Bridesmaid & Bestman

Reception at Kg. Suok... 27/08/2011

Adele - Someone like you (OFFICIAL VIDEO LYRICS) HD Live from Brit Award...

"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"

Such a beautiful song as well a beautiful stunning voice..

Love and be Loved in return

I just got married 10 days ago..finally~...and now i am currently living in KL with my hubby and his family. You know...i just had chills all over my body realizing how lucky i am. I had married the most loving man i have ever met. He has such a big, HUGE heart.

Since i started dating him (again), he has always put me first. He never thinks about it, he just does it. It always amazes me how he never change since before.

I made a list of all the special things about Kaynee that i am thankful for...

~ He has given up the need for material things, new cars, new electronics, and all the next best things.

~He drove me to work everyday this week to help comfort me and accompany me for lunch.

~ He tries to stay awake longer than me at night so i can fall asleep first.

~ He gave himself to God, so we could raise a family in faith.

~ He has supported me in all my decisions, helping me along the way.

~ He watches all my shows with me; Keeping up with the Kardashians, Giuliana & Bill, The Vampire Diaries, even the Real Housewives.

~ He's a 28 year old man, who would rather spend time at home with his wife, than hangout with his friends at Starbucks.

~ He has given me the perfect life, he has really given me everything i have ever wanted, a loving and caring husband.

Marriage these days seem to have so many hardship. I have my selfish times, but honestly Kaynee never does. Gosh, he ALWAYS puts me before himself sometimes i feel so guilty about it..hehe.. I watch as people try so hard to be perfect, have the best clothes, best car, all the toys, but in the end those things do not make you happy. It's the one's you love that do.

Nothing can ever make you happier than to love, and be loved in return~

Maroon 5 - Moves Like Jagger ft. Christina Aguilera

Love / Hate this song...arghhhhh!! contageous song....sigh~

sigh~

It's 2325 hrs now and i still can't sleep. I have no idea why. Its not that i think too much. Its just that i really can't sleep..well, im not sleepy yet.                                                                                                                                               So what i do is that i play game on my lappy toppy..yet still can't sleep. KW is sleeping peacefully + snoring (other reason i can't sleep) already. So i woke him up and asked him to accompany me. He said ok...........5 secs later he's snoring back...sigh~....                                                                                                                                                                                                               So now i blogging using my Vivaz...i feel bored~...don't know what else to do.    Help me pls...sob sob~

Wedding pics~

Sorry la ya. Can't upload too many..teda surprise la kalu mcm tu kan..hehehehe..enjoy d pics... :)

I'm getting married

Yes it's true..and not only i'm getting married, but we're getting married on the 27th August 2011. THIS MONTH. In case you're counting, that's 26 DAYS away. Call me crazy, because i know i am.

I never thought there would be so much to do and so much to think about when planning a wedding. I have to admit, i've been going a little crazy...Kaynee and i had been planning on getting engaged for a couple of months now but we didn't expect it to be this fast...hehe..it's a long story actually..hehe..let's just remain it to be secret la.. :)

but even though it's kinda fast, ada juga dia proposed saya..haha..the way he did it was even sweeter and perfectly simple, just like us...i had left the room for a minute and when i came back he told me i had gotten a text. When i checked my handbag there was nothing there..i got angry la cos at that time i was kinda stress over so many things..and when i turned around he had gotten down on one knee. He sweetly told me how much he loved me and asked me to marry him. It was perfect for me ( trus hilang rasa marah and feel soo emotional)....LOL...

Preparing for the wedding is the hardest part. Need to decide really - really carefully. So you'd think you got the guy (YAY! Never thought that it would happen for me!), you get the ring, and then you get married...but then you add in the dress shopping, picking your accessories, shoes, hair piece, make up artist, and hair stylist...and that's just for ONE DAY OF BEAUTIFYING! Then you have invitations, save-the-dates, favors, bridesmaids stuff, etc, etc.....(not to mention food and flowers and the open bar...). One word: EXPENSIVE! hehehe...but well, you just do it only once in your lifetime..so berabis la spending... :)

Well, so far everything's already settle. I've been back and forth to kk every week. It's kinda tiring and stressful...but i don't mind. It's my wedding and i want to make it special and memorable. I hope that all my best friends would come to my wedding..who doesn't wish that rite..hehe

I will post some of my pre-wedding pics in the next blog. It's almost time now..

Chao~

If I Die Young

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh, uh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a
Boy here in town who says he'll love me forever,
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well,
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh (uh, oh)
The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls

*Meaningful song...miss you dearly...sob sob~

Next To You

[Chris Brown]

You've got that smile,
That only heaven can make.
I pray to God everyday,
That you keep that smile.

[Justin Bieber]

Yeah, you are my dream,
There's not a thing I won't do.
I'll give my life up for you,
Cos you are my dream.

[Bridge]

And baby, everything that I have is yours,
You will never go cold or hungry.
I'll be there when you're insecure,
Let you know that you're always lovely.
Girl, cos you are the only thing that I got right now

[Chorus]

One day when the sky is falling,
I'll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Nothing will ever come between us,
I'll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.

[Chris Brown]

You had my child,
(My lady)
You make my life complete.
(My lady)
Just to have your eyes on little me,
That'd be mine forever.

[Bridge]

And baby, everything that I have is yours
You will never go cold or hungry
I'll be there when you're insecure
Let you know that you're always lovely
Girl, cos you are the only thing that I got right now

[Chorus]

One day when the sky is falling,
I'll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Nothing will ever come between us,
I'll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.

[Bridge]

We're made for one another
Me and you
And I have no fear
I know we'll make it through

One day when the sky is falling
I'll be standing right next to you
Ohh ohh ohh ohhhhh

Isn't she look so pretty and sweet? I just love to see her!! Currently stars as Elena Gilbert & Katherine Pierce in Vampire Diaries along with hottie, Ian Somerhalder (Damon Salvatore) and i don't know what's his name as Stefan Salvatore..hehehe..

The reason why i love to see her is that she don't even have to try hard to look good. Even without make-up, she still looks pretty...and i love that about her. Everything she does (well, in TVD), cry, laugh or being bitchy..she still looks incredibly gorgeous!!

Well, try to watch it for yourself. You'll fall in love with her in TVD cos she looks sweet (most of the times) and pretty. AND i can't wait for Season 3....goshhhh...i can't wait till September for the show to air. Can't wait to see Elena & Damon together too!! Over excited ni..sigh~

Till then...Tata~

Get It Right

What have I done? I wish I could run
Away from this ship goin' under
Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

Can I start again with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?

Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right

So I throw up my fist
Throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send down a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

Kedapatan~

Last Saturday after came back from sunset Mass, the road back home was heavily jam. So i was on the right lane when suddenly i saw his car on the left lane. And surprisingly i saw him with his gf in the car and when he realized that i was beside him, he looks really tensed..LOL!! tidak kah kedapatan tu?! So much for "you think easy ka girl to be my gf"...what a jerk! Fuh!! luckily i didn't layan sangat his muka kesian for keep asking me to go to his apartment. He's been asking it since Tuesday..and Saturday morning he called me around 9 something just to asked me to stop by his house for a while just to kasi hilang his sangap. What does he think i am??? A whore? Why don't call his gf and ask from her?????!!!!

I forget to mention this in my previous post..during our video call, he keeps showing me all dis porn video. and most horrifying thing he did was showing me his d**k. WTF!!!!

If i was a bad person, I've already upload his video in youtube and tell the whole world how stupid and a jerk he is. And not forgetting showing it to his whole family..baru dorang tau who is being such a BITCH!! And not only that, but all his messages he wrote to me. All porn messages. Arrgghhhh!! Just feel like wanna bring him down just like how he, his family and his stupid gf bring me down. Then he knows how does it feels..

But i don't know why i can't do it..sigh~...i just leave it to God to do all the vengeance for me..

Through all this thing going on around me, i feel like i'm getting stronger and braver to say "no" to him. Not only that..i just realize that i don't have any feelings towards him anymore (well maybe a little) but it doesn't effect my life anymore.

Thank you God for listening and granting my prayer~

!@#$%^&*

As usual i always online at night and he usually online too but never buzz or message me. It's not like i want him or expect him to do that. After a while i get used to it already and i don't even give a damn at all whether he's online or not....but this past few days, he keeps on messaging me just when i just sign in my YM (Yahoo Messenger) and started telling me he misses me and all that. I got confuse...i mean he got a gf, so why the hell bother's me again after i tried so hard to let him go.

He keeps on asking me to meet up and hangout. When i asked him what happen to his gf, he sarcastically answered "i told you it's not easy to be my gf"...it means that he never have a gf after me...and that's BULLSHIT la. Remembering his stupid PTI gf called me and threatened me not to disturb him (which i never did) and that stupid BITCH whom i thinks envy me so much 'till desperately tell d whole world i'm married and have kids - that all keep playing in my mind that he's really a JERK! I know when i start to meet him again, i'm trap in his web of lies. He will use me for comfort, sex, u name it...

The other night he wanted to video call and he keep on requesting for it..so ok la..kasi muka sama dia la sikit. So we video call 'till almost 3am. He acts like nothing ever happen and called me bie (used to called me when we're still together). I don't know actually what he's trying to do. Is he sincere or just fooling around. He showed me the things that i gave him before and told me that he's not gonna throw it away. I'm just confuse what he's trying to do. I think he do la but then he don't wanna show it in front of other people. And i think he obeys his mum request to not be with me anymore. So i think that is why the only way for him to talk to me is through YM or meet at his apartment.

Sigh~...this is life. Life never wants me to be happy i guess. It always confuses me~

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I Hate Being Sick

So I was feeling a little less than healthy yesterday, but I chalked that up to having gone out Sunday. My appetite wasn't that great, my throat was kinda icky, and I had a headache...Well, I woke up this morning and couldn't face going in to work today but i came to work also lah..hehehe...I'm headachy, coughing, sinus-pressurey, and have a wicked sore throat. I'm miserable.

Yes, i'm whiny...sigh~

I hope I feel better tomorrow because everything goes to hell in here if i don't do my work, but I guess we'll see...~

And oh ya..today is my childhood/bestest friend in the world's birthday. Happy birthday darling Debra Jill Jolonius a.k.a DJJ..hahaha your still pretty + hot + fabulosity + sexy..hehehe..betul ni.. :)..Have a great one ya darlz!! Once again..happy birthday to you babe!! xoxo..

Shattered

Trading Yesterday - Shattered

Yesterday I died, tomorrow's bleeding

Fall into your sunlight
The future's open wide beyond believing
To know why hope dies
Losing what was found, a world so hollow
Suspended in a compromise
The silence of this sound is soon to follow
Somehow sundown

And finding answers
Is forgetting all of the questions we call home
Passing the graves of the unknown

As reason clouds my eyes, with splendor fading
Illusions of the sunlight
And the reflection of a lie will keep me waiting
Love gone for so long

This day's ending is the proof of time killing all the faith I know
Knowing that faith is all I hold

And Ive lost who I am
And I can't understand
Why my heart is so broken
Rejecting your love
Without love gone wrong
Life
Less words
Carry on

But i know
All i know
Is that the ends beginning

Who I am from the start
Take me home to my heart
Let me go
And I will run
I will not be silenced

All this time spent in vain
Wasted years
Wasted gain
All is lost
Hope remains
And this war's not over

Theres a light
Theres the sun
Taking all the shattered ones
To the place we belong
And his love will conquer

And Ive lost who I am
And I can't understand
Why my heart is so broken
Rejecting your love
Without love gone wrong
Life
Less words
Carry on

But i know
All i know
Is that the ends beginning

Who I am from the start
Take me home to my heart
Let me go
And I will run
I will not be silenced

All this time spent in vain
Wasted years
Wasted gain
All is lost
Hope remains
And this war's not over

Theres a light
Theres the sun
Taking all the shattered ones
To the place we belong
And his love will conquer all
Yes his love will conquer all

Yesterday I died, tommorrows bleeding
Fall into your sunlight

**I love this song and the lyrics. For me, this is a song about hope in love - it's about being broken and hurt, so much that you can't take the idea of accepting love again, which is a lonely, miserable place to be in. You don't want to accept love from anyone because love is what will hurt you. But then, there's a revelation. You find a love that you want to accept. It's going to hurt, allowing it into your heart, but it gives you hope, the light at the end of the tunnel, if you will. It's a painful process to accept it, but in the end, it's a healing process and it's what will repair your shattered heart. This song is about that realization and taking the 1st step into accepting love, and seeing the journey ahead and being willing to take it for love's sake.

To me, yes, that love means God's love, which will conquer and will heal all the shattered ones out there..

Bruno Mars - The Lazy Song

Loveeeeeeee this songggg!! cute video clip....i loikeee!!!

Justin Bieber - That Should Be Me ft. Rascal Flatts

Somehow i like this song very much. Been listening to it since yesterday....and JB looks good in this video clip. He looks more matured and i like his hair style..LOL!! teda - teda ni..hahaha

should i...or....should i not??...hmmm....

While browsing my old pc just now, suddenly these 2 pictures caught my eyes...hmmm...the weird thing is that i never seen this pic before and i don't know when this pic was taken. But judging from my pic, i think it was taken after my engagement (see ring on the left and the bangle)..sigh...we look so happy together~

I hate this feelings....feelings of wanting to be next to him. He's the only guy that i'm very close with..i mean really-really close. He's my best friend...the only person who knows me inside-out. It's a lie if i said i don't love him anymore because actually i still do...just not that much anymore. I decided to break our friendship because it is really hard for me to be friends with him. 10 years of relationship gone just like that. It's like in a funeral..you lost your beloved ones.

So, i'm thinking...should i keep or delete this pictures? Not only this pictures la..i have a lot more which i keep it safe in a box and seal it. I don't ever wanna open it anymore..

Boredom~

peace nanet....by my God-daughter, Divine

i hate how whenever i try to post a blog entry, i have to fill up some sort of "word verification" which involves like, me having to figure out letters that are somewhat distorted and really squirmy looking and then i feel really nauseous and a lot of times can't make out the word because it's so distorted and when in cases that i do figure out the distortion, i get completely alien word. like today the word is "feminno" and then i wonder if it's even a real word at all! which makes me do a google.com search on the word and today, like many previous disappointments, it does not exist at all.

i wonder who comes out with these words? is it a real job? with proper pay? $4000 a month (with lunch break and paid maternity leave) to sit there and rearrange alphabets for people who use blogger.com, to ensure our blog's privacy are at top notch. Probably not. Seeing how computers have replaced any type of fun job left.

bla bla bla..

I am very melodramatic
Living, existing, breathing, smiling, crying
Purpose, emptiness
Existantial living
..is so overwhelming

March baby~

I just realize.....lot's of people birthday this month besides me... *wink*..first of all is my birthday (4th March), then my bestie, Debra's daughter, Ashley Demita (13th March), my bestie Adelin (18th March), my niece, Fiyoshi (21st March), my niece @ my daughter, Phoebe (24th March)...lastly my cousin, Emong (27th March)...fuhhh...

Last night we celebrate Phoebe's 3rd bday at her house. Time flies so fast..she can talk properly already. Her little brother, Preston a.k.a Baba also can run and knows how to say the word "NO"...well, that is his favorite word.

Well, enjoy the pictures...