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"Deciding to get back together with someone is a complicated & difficult decisions. Just remember that the person you are getting back together with is the same person who, not longer before, looked you in your beautiful face, took full stock of you & all your qualities, and told you that he was no longer in need of your company"

Josh Groban - Remember When It Rained [HD]

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when you’re going to start again?
from waking up in the morning
thinking of the past, of yesterday
of the bad memories, of good ones
then thinking of today…
what can you expect for today?
or is there anything to expect?
maybe just leave it like whatever happens, happens
better be on the safe side
than to expect and get hurt in the end
why does it have to be complicated
when it can be done nice and simple?
don’t know, maybe just thinking too much
when there’s nothing to think about
now, back to the question..
how to start your day?
still a question...

Oh Holy Night - Mariah Carey CHRISTMAS SPECIAL live

Simply amazing...just love her voice!!

LSE Annual Dinner 2010

Can't get to bed. Again. None of this matters~

1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? - Closed
2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? - No.. I finish whats meant to be a 3 day supply in one go
3. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? - Out, unless the powers out
4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before? - Yes.. how juvenile
5. Do you like to use post-it notes? - Yes but they end up all over the place
6. Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? - Sometimes
7. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees? - Would I rather get clawed to death or stung? Hmm.
8. Do you have freckles? - A little
9. Do you always smile for pictures? - ABSOLUTELY!! hehehe
10. What is your biggest pet peeve? - I actually don't know what a "pet peeve" is.
11. Do you ever count your steps when you walk? - Yes..if i don't i will fall b'cos of miss steps
12. Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing? - Yes..
13. Do you chew your pens and pencils? - I borrow so technically "yours" being someone elses, YES..haha..sorry guys~
14. How many people have you slept with this week? - None
15. What size is your bed? - King size
16. What is your Song of the week? - Emimem feat Lil Wayne - No Love
17. Is it okay for guys to wear pink? - Only if I am in love with him.
18. Do you still watch cartoons? - yup
19. Whats your least favorite movie? - Anything Star-trek related.
20. Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some? - In a bottle of peanut butter
21. What do you drink with dinner? - Water..
22. What do you dip a chicken nugget in? - Tomato sauce
23. What is your favorite food? - Wantan Mee..hehehe
24. What movies could you watch over and over and still love? - Leap Year
25. Last person you kissed/kissed you? - my niece, Phoebe
26. Were you ever a boy/girl scout? - yes
26. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? - What kind of magazine?
27. Can you change the oil on a car? - I can do a re-fill
28. Favorite kind of sandwich? - Egg sandwich
29. Best thing to eat for breakfast? - Egg! Sausage! Maggie mee~
30. What is your usual bedtime? - 3am - 5am
31. Are you lazy? - Sometimes
32. When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? - Tinkerbelle
33. How many languages can you speak? - 3
34. Which are better legos or lincoln logs? - Lego. They have Lego Land. I don't see no Lincoln Log-Land.
35. Who is better...Leno or Letterman? - Larry King
36. Ever watch soap operas? - Nop
37. Dance in the shower? - No I might slip
38. Do you think musicals are cheesy? - Yes, I cannot sit through one
39. Is Christmas stressful? - No. It's magic.
40. Ever eat a pierogi? - Whats that? Sounds korean. Or portugese.
41. Favorite type of fruit pie? - Banana Pie.
42. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? - TV presenter, interior design..
43. Take a vitamin daily? - I forget. Everyday I forget.
44. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? - Whichever.. They all sell Mustard in bulk.
45. Cheetos Or Fritos? - CHEETOS
46. Ever hear of the group Tres Bien? - No but they must be good
47. Ever take dance lessons? - No
48. DJ or band, at a wedding? - DJ
49. Ever won a contest? - emmm...maybe YES, maybe NO..i don't remember..
50. Do you want to get married? - Yes! Definitely!!
51. Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? - I have. It worked.
52. Do you want kids? - 3 junior me's.. ;)
53. Whats your favorite color? - Blue
54. Do you miss anyone right now? - Miss Him so badly..need a hug..huhuhu~

Dear God,

It has been a year. I looked almost knowing already..maybe that was you god. Even though I have someone now, finding out hurt me. Is it just the feeling of rejection haunting me? I know we wouldn't have been good for each other. Someone loves me very much now, Yet, I can’t seem to completely let go of Him. How do I move on and heal?

Suddenly I begin to feel him near me, but it hurts to see thats he’s really so far away, more each day. I need to say somethings to him, I need to kiss him again, I need him in my arms once more, I need to see his face when I’m lying next to him. I’m afraid of never seeing him again. I want to hear Nick Cave’s “Into my Arms” without crying. Please lead his way with your guiding light right into the happines path, and help me to forget him…or bring him back, I promise to do my best and to learn from my mistakes, mistakes that made me lose him. I know he hasn’t forget me yet so..send an angel to whisper in his ear each night that I love him and that I want him to be happy…even if it’s not with me.

Amen...sob sob~

Kau katakan cinta gunakan akal
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang menyangkal
Bagaimana nak kekal
Kau katakan cinta gunakan minda
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang tak percaya
Bagaimana nak bahagia



Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu
Tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa



(Rap)
Dan aku cuba sedaya upaya
Telah ku usaha dengan sepenuh jiwa
Bagaimana hendak ku lupa
bayangan wajahmu selalu di depan mata
harum baumu masih dapat ku hidu
Bagaimana ingin aku membencimu
Jikalau setiap hari merindu
Sekiranya derita merinduimu itu sebenarnya bahagia..
Aku pilih derita..



Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Mungkinkah esok atau lusa walau biarpun lama
Akan ku biar tiada ku tetap kan setia
Entah bila akan tiba sampai jua harimu yang sama
Esok seperti semalaman yang tak berubah

(Ulang) (2x)
Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula
Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula

(Rap)
Seandainya kau berada di depan mata
Mudah untuk aku berkata-kata
Supaya dapatku melihat seraut wajahmu
Walaupun belum tentu kau mahu bertemu
Apalagi memandangku
Setelah ku turutkan segala kemahuan kau mainkan perasaan
Begitu mudah kau ucapkan terimalah saja kenyataan..Aku masih terkilan
Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

(Rap)
Jika kau dapat memahami hati seorang perindu
Baru kau tahu derita hatiku
Jika suatu hari nanti giliran kau merindu
Baru kau ingat derita diriku
Segala yang berlaku bukan kemahuanku
Apa gunanya bahgia
Jikalau bahagia bersamamu hanyalah untuk sementara waktu
Aku pilih derita merinduimu

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

Blurry me~

I'm Taking chances
I wear my heart on a sleeve
I'm walking backwards into the future
This world is getting too deep

I'm not sure if I really want to
I'm not sure what this all means, anymore~

I Loike~~

For the past few days I've been googling on Blackberry Torch 9800 (besides thinking of my choices on love life hehehe). This hand phone really caught my attention. It looks sooo sophisticately beautiful to me!! I just can't get my eyes off it..sigh~ Maybe i can put that in my Christmas wish list since Christmas is around the corner...hehehehe

Christmases When You Were Mine

Taylor Swift - Christmases When You Were Mine

Please take down the misletoe
Cause I don't wanna think about that right now
Cause everything I want is miles away
In a snow covered little town
My momma's in the kitchen, worrying about me
Season's greetings, hope you're well
Well I'm doing alrightIf you were wondering
Lately I can never tell

I know this shouldn't be a lonely time
But there were Christmases when you were mine

I've been doing fine without you, really
Up until the nights got cold
And everybody's here, except you, baby
Seems like everyone's got someone to hold
But for me it's just a lonely time
Cause there were Christmases when you were mine

Merry Christmas everybody
That'll have to be something I just say this year
I'll bet you got your mom another sweater
And were your cousins late again
When you were putting up the lights this year
Did you notice one less pair of hands

I know this shouldn't be a lonely time
But there were Christmases when I didn't wonder how you are tonight
Cause there were Christmases when you were mine

You were mine

He Proposed!!

I met a guy...well, not met la hehe..i known him since i was still budak hingusan (that's what he said) lagi. We started to communicate again (thanx to DJJ!) and eventually started dating again.

Last night, like usual he always called me before we go to bed but last night was a bit different. Surprisingly he called me so early but i'm not that surprise la..haha...i'm being exaggerate..LOL!!..so we've talked la about how's our days and all...then all of sudden he proposed to me again!! FOR THE 2ND TIME!! OMG!! It was all very exciting and although he is everything I’ve ever wanted, I’m now getting scared the proposal came too soon. Am I just being paranoid? He is so fantastic. I keep having to pinch myself that this could be happening to me. But then i haven't give him any answer yet. I need to think thoroughly about everything because i really need to know what i want actually. It's not that i don't want to be with him, it's just that i have doubts about my feelings. Sigh~

Next month he will be coming over with his family to meet my family. So probably i will get engage by next year...hmm...i need to do so much things again. I need to settle things with my then fiance (yes! I am still attached with him..fyi..). Also i need to ask myself if i really want this or not. I can't just listen to what my friends and families says..because in the end, it's me who's getting marry. Not them. So gurls, no offence ya...*wink wink*

I guess i need to think carefully and i hope everything's will go smoothly...especially confronting Him about this. God, please guide me with all this..help me to stay strong...sigh~...susah jua kan. The thing is, i still love and care for Him..this is what makes me can't decide..but i can't just keep quiet right..i need to confront him and tell him all my feelings. If he still ignore me, than that's it la. I'm moving on and maybe move to wherever my boyfriend is. So gurls, please pray for me and support me..hehehe...

That's it for now. Mau pegi police station dulu to pay my summon..LOL!! Nanti tutup lagi..hehehe..will update again soon.. *wink wink*

Toodles~

Apa Saja~

OK!! After reading DJJ's blog..i find it kinda interesting juga this quiz. Memandangkan i'm free for now, so why not just give it a try. Hopefully my answer is not as crazy as yours la kan DJJ. LOL!!

The Rules:

Put your music library on shuffle. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. You must write that song title as the answer to the question, no matter how silly it sounds! Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough. Ok, go! When you're done, tag 20 people in this note, and make sure to tag the person who sent you this. The answer to #20 is the Title of your note.

1.If someone says, “Is this okay?” you say..
Only You (Take Me Away) - Nina sky feat Kidz In The Hall
(erk....hmm...)

2. How would you describe yourself?
Numb - Linkin Park
(YES!! i could be ignorant sometimes..hehe)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?

Freaky Dance - Trey Songz feat T.I & Swizz Beatz
(Ketara la suka yg kaki clubbing kan..hahaha..)

4. How do you feel today?
Falling Slowly - Lee DeWyze & Crystal Bowersox
(Yeah~...cos papa kedana suda kan..hehe)

5. What is your life’s purpose?
Before The Lobotomy - Green Day
(definition: surgical interruption of nerve tracts to and from the frontal lobe of the brain; often results in marked cognitive and personality changes" hehe sempat lagi buka dictionary)

6. What's your motto?
Situasi - Bunkface
(aik..i don't even know i have this song in my playlist..lol!!)

7. What do your friends think of you?
Tetaplah Di Hatiku - Bunga Citra Lestari & Christian Bautista
(yess DJJ, i know you gonna say i'm "cinta agung" kan once you saw this answer..aaahhhhh~)

8. What do you think of your parents?
Boom Shaka Laka - Flo Rida
(ARGH! BULIH2! hahaha)

9. What do you think about very often?
Ridin' Solo - Jason Derulo
(hahaha!)

10. What is 2 + 2?
Peacock - Katy Perry

(LOL!!!!)

11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?
Deja Vu - 3OH!3
(erk....)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
Crazy Ride - Michelle Branch
(Aduhhh~~...ada ka crazy ride..apakah?? hahaha)

13. What is your life story?
On This Day - David Pomeranz
(lagu kahwin la pula! LOL! yeah..lately been thinking bout wanna get marry jak..kikiki)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Run This Town - Jay-Z feat Kanye West & Rihanna
(wahahaha...mcm so ganas ni wanna run this town~)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Funk Phenomena - Starkillers vs DJ Jahbert
(hahaha!!)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Right Thru Me - Nicki Minaj
(you see right thru me~~~~ haha)

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Again - Bruno Mars
(Macam banyak kali saja saya mati!)

18. What is your biggest fear?
Wind Beneath My Face - Akon
(hahahahaha)

19. What is your biggest secret?
Goodbye To You - Michelle Branch

(oooppssss....kedapatan suda..lol!)

20. What will you post this as?
Apa Saja - KRU
(aahhhhhhh~.....ada kah lagu KRU..hahahaha)

Part 2

First time listen to this song..memang i can really feel every word. It reminds me of Him and me before and it hurts like hell knowing that this song is able to describe its words but its awesome at the same time...weird huh..

Eminem feat Rihanna - Love The Way You Lie (Part II)

On the first page of our story, the future seems so bright.
And this thing turned out so evil, I don’t know why I’m still surprised.
Even angels have their wicked schemes and you take death to new extremes.
But you’ll always be my hero, even though you lost your mind.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn,
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry,
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie.
I love the way you lie.

Now this gravel in our voices, glass is shattered from the fight.
In this tug of war, you’ll always win, even when I’m right.
Cause you feed me fables from your hand,
With violent words and empty threats and it’s sick that all these battles are what keeps me satisfied.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn,
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry,
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie.
Ohhh, I love the way you lie.

So maybe I’m a masochist
I try to run but I don’t wanna ever leave.
Til the walls are goin’ up in smoke with all our memories.

[Eminem]
This morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face
smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
hush baby, speak softly, tell me I’ll be sorry that you
pushed me into the coffee table last night so I can push you off me
try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
run out the room and I’ll follow you like a lost puppy
baby, without you, I’m nothing, I’m so lost, hug me
then tell me how ugly I am, but that you’ll always love me
then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
destructive path that we’re on, two psychopaths but we
know that no matter how many knives we put in each other’s backs
that we’ll have each other’s backs, ’cause we’re that lucky
together, we move mountains, let’s not make mountains out of molehills,
you hit me twice, yeah, but who’s countin’
I may have hit you three times, I’m startin’ to lose count
but together, we’ll live forever, we found the youth fountain
our love is crazy, we’re nuts, but I refused counselin’
this house is too huge, if you move out I’ll burn all two thousand
square feet of it to the ground, ain’t shit you can do about it
with you I’m in my f–kin’ mind, without you, I’m out it

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn,
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry,
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie.
Ohhh, I love the way you lie.I love the way you lie.

Anniversary~

Can't believe it's almost been 1 year..how time passed so fast..and i realize that i miss him very much. Every now and then i keep thinking about him and the relationship..what does it feels actually if we really did make it to the altar. Being said this makes me become so emotional *sob sob*... 21st November is the date we picked for our Wedding Day but...sob sob~

I wonder..maybe it's a test from God for we have been so long together...or maybe it was meant to be this way..i just don't know..all i know is that i just can't stop thinking about him or should i say, i just can't stop loving him. I just don't know how he could act so fine and calm..or maybe he's just acting tough in front of me.. :(..i'm a bit lost in my relationship..well, not a relationship anymore but i still love him and it's getting on my nerves sometimes *sob sob*

How bad he treated me before i just can't hate him so much. I still want to be there for him..it's like i've been compelled by him..sigh~..just like DJJ said the other day, "i think between KW and him, you will choose him. Whatever bad he did or does to you, you will always choose him"...which i think it's true. I don't know why. Although i have someone who treats me more better than he does, i still can't completely let go my love for him. I guess i have given him all of my love and now it's still with him which he doesn't even take good care of it *sob sob*..sometimes i feel so bad and guilty to my bf..even when i'm with bf, i can think about him. I know it's a bad thing to do but i just can't help it at times. Is it normal like this? God, just please help me~

There's so much things in my mind right now that i cannot even take it out from my chest. When night time comes, i will get so emotional and i started to cry. I miss being next to him, chat chatting 'till we fall asleep..if only i could have one day..just one day being next to him, that would be great.. :(..

You asked me to be happy, look forward not the past...how could you say that when you yourself still talks about your past and about me to other people? I know this from someone. Guess both of us are the same..we're too bond with each other that we cannot actually live without each other...but only you always trying to deny it or maybe you don't realize that. I don't think i could ever let you go completely..but then again..this is just now. I don't know 'till when this gonna last. I may have a great bf (or should i say perfect bf) but then i don't want that. All i really want is you..or maybe that's just my feelings..sigh~

That's all for now lah..can't write anymore. Tears keep falling down my cheek kalau i keep on writing. Just wanna wish you Happy 1st Anniversary (eventhough tidak kesampaian)..*sob sob*..

Vampire Diaries

Gosh!! I'm so addicted with Vampire Diaries now. Thanx to Tayree William! Now i'm so addicted to it!! Sigh~... :) It is more interesting than Twilight or that HBO vampire series thingy...forgot what's the name..lol! Basically Vampire Diaries series follows the life of Elena Gilbert who falls in love with a century-old vampire Stefan Salvatore, and soon finds herself caught in a love triangle between Stefan and his super HAWT good looking brother, Damon Salvatore (when i say HAWT, seriously he is really DAMN HAWT..hehe). Both brothers began to show affection towards Elena, mainly because of her resemblance to their past love, Katherine Pierce. Interesting right...jeng jeng jeng... hehehe

Damon Salvatore

I've just finish watched the 1st season and i really can't wait to watch 2nd season. The whole season is not boring at all and all you have is curiosity what's gonna happen next. To me, i just wish Elena choose Damon instead of Stefan bcos Stefan is so fugly! lol!! jahat oo kan...Damon is super gorgeous (droollll~)...his eyes...ohh his eyes..memang really boleh compel orang owh..seriously!! But then..that's how drama is..the pretty one always ends up with the ugly person...sigh~

Well guys, this drama is worth to watch. Really interesting, more actions than talking. Really good to watch lah..and i'm sure you're never gonna get enough of it once you start watching..i can guarantee that..lol!!

Worth it all

Just now I had an epiphany.
I love my bf with all of my heart and soul. This was not my epiphany (obviously), but it has a whole lot to do with it. There are many reasons why I fell in love with him, why I want to be with him. I cannot name them all, for I am still discovering them each day, but I can name just a few:

He is kind
He is selfless and selflessly loving
He is protective
He is respectful and earns respect instead of demanding it
He is extremely caring
He is honest
He is humble
He is genuine
He is understanding
He is reliable
He is devoid of arrogance or false pride
He is generous
He is unassuming and in the least bit entitled
He is faithful
He loves me even in my failures...

Here is where my epiphany starts to unearth itself a little:
There is a man I knew my whole life. For the past 9-10 years my "relationship" with this man has been, shall we say, strained. Very, very strained... to say the least. This man whom I looked up to from before I could remember to the time I could make sense of things and listen to my instincts and who was, for lack of a better term, a constant in my life should have been a great example, should have done what he told me he would do and look after me. Not only did he lie, but he did the opposite.

For reasons I cannot understand this man cruelly and purposefully pushed me away and broke my already broken heart. Ever since then I quickly lost respect for him. I know for a fact that I am not the only person who felt/feel this way and experienced the same or similar issues with this man. Or worse. Throughout those 9-10 years a lot contributed to the distance growing between the two of us. Without realizing it my bitterness grew and I shoved it away and kept it silent for years so that I would not hurt anyone's feelings or step on any toes.

Over the course of the past decade or so I took mental notes. One of my gifts is observation. Perhaps it's the actor in me. I have often learned from others' mistakes or actions and paid attention to what I should and shouldn't do in my own life based on those mistakes and my observations. Not to say that I haven't made mistakes, I certainly have. I've made big mistakes and I'd be the first to admit it, but I have also learned from those, too.

Moving on closer to my epiphany:

Falling in love with my bf was easy. One of the easiest things in my life. There are many, many reasons why I choose him and one of those important reasons is the fact that Kaynee is the complete opposite of the aforementioned man. Kaynee possesses qualities I never observed in this man and neither does he possess any of this man's major... hmmm, how shall I say this... shortcomings.

All of this I have known for quite some time, but what I realized today was this:

I know that there are plenty of lessons to learn from this, plenty of room to grow and become a stronger, wiser, better person, I know this is all part of God's bigger plan, BUT...

If everything I went through because of this man for the past few years or so, all the pain of betrayal that I shoved away and swept under the rug for the sake of others that is now unearthing itself and spilling out all over, if all of this brokenness and bitterness and anger was all meant for one reason and that one reason being that it taught me what qualities I should look for in a wonderful boyfriend, an amazing man such as Kaynee. If that were the ONLY reason, then it would all be worth it.

Absolutely WORTH IT ALL.

God has blessed me. I am learning to be joyful in trials and am finding the blessings in all of this mess. As all of this pain and anger and brokenness is bubbling out of me, I am eternally grateful for the generosity of the Lord. I prayed asking God for a better boyfriend. I prayed fervently. The Lord certainly answered my prayers. He has answered many of my prayers. He is STILL answering prayers. In the midst of all that is going on, God is answering our prayers. The answers may hurt for the moment, but the reward of our faithfulness will be greatly worth it all.

"My brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of any kind, consider it nothing but joy, because you know that the testing of your faith produces endurance; and let endurance have it's full effect, so that you may be mature and complete, lacking in nothing." (James 1: 2-4)

081010 - 111010..

Hotel view..

I-City, Shah Alam

KL Tower

he said Sammy looks like me when i wear my spec..


Aquaria, KLCC

I Love & Loved the way..

You are my lover…my only love. I must be the luckiest girl in the universe to have you as my man. My love, it’s so hard to breathe when I look into your eyes. God bless that green and blue with highlights of black and white. I loved the way you looked at me. I loved the way you stared me down. I loved the way you followed me. I loved the way you teased me like you were hunting me down. I loved the way you projected yourself. I loved how you always told the truth. I loved the way you held my hand. I loved the way you wouldn’t let go, even after a minute or two. I loved the way you tricked me and that sneaky smile you’d put on. I loved the way you treated me, the way you corrected me when I was wrong. I loved the way you taught me when I didn’t know. I loved the way you praised me for all my work on the right road. I loved the way you called my name. I loved the way you whispered in my ear how much you loved me.

You are my boyfriend…my only hope. I’d want you to shine your love for me, more beautiful than a shooting star. I love the way you evaluate everything, from everyone’s thoughts to everyone’s cries. I love the way you read, your mind focusing, alerted. I love the way you look at me from far away, and smile. I love the way you appreciate me more than every while. I love the way you kiss me, as your lips touch mine. I love the way you ask me if I am all right, making me feel like a wife. I love the way you symbolize so much, for a meaning of such few. I love the way you tell me that you love the way I look at you. I love you when you make me feel special. I love you when you take all the loneliness away. I love you when you are yourself. I love the way you love me.

Advantages of a Long Distance Relationship

If you're in a long distance relationship like I am, you are only well too aware that there are many disadvantages about this kind of setup. For one thing, physical affection is limited only to when the two of you are together which might not be very often. Also, it's easy to fall into the jealousy trap because when you don't regularly see your significant other, it's easy to start assuming that he or she is up to no good (which i always do..hehe..)

The list of negatives could go on and on here but let's instead explore the advantages of a long distance relationship. Sometimes we just need to look on the bright side of things *wink*

Improved conversation - Is this really possible when you're not actually in the same room as your mate? While communication without eye contact and without body language is certainly different and arguably much more challenging (uh oh, another negative!), it has its advantages. If the two of you are in a long distance relationship and only communicating by phone or through email, it forces you to really talk to one another because let's face it, what else is there to do? In person, it's all too easy to start taking each other for granted as far as conversation goes - for example, to plop in front of the TV after work and barely say a word to each other all evening. Ironically enough, couples who are in a long distance relationship might actually end up communicating more than couples who aren't.

Absence make the heart grow fonder - It's true what they say. When you're lying in bed at night and missing your love, you feel like you would give anything just to be with him or her. It's funny how during these moments you can't seem to recall any of their lesser desirable qualities - right now, he or she is just perfect. It is for this reason that in absence, your heart really does grow fonder.

Together is that much sweeter - When you finally get to see your partner again, it feels like heaven and you want to take advantage of every split second you have together. Couples who truly get to see each other every day - although it's nice, I'm sure - are at risk of taking each other for granted. They are just simply not going to be as excited to see each other after a day at work as long distance couples are who haven't seen each other in months.

Those are just the few positive things that i find out bout LDR.. :)..to me, long distance relationship can work only if you're both willing. It's just that you just have to beat the odds. If you really want it then you can make it happen. Just trust each other and keep the love alive~

Just The Way You Are

KW fav song...he's been singing dis song to me for the whole week im there...day & nite...non-stop!! hehe and now i kinda miss it..sigh~

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me

And it's so, it's so
Sad to think she don't see what I see
But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

(Chorus)
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
I'd never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same
So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

(Chorus)

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you

Holiday Pics

Empire Hotel, Subang Jaya

Genting Highland

my NERDY bf...

glow in d dark bowling centre..kewl kan..