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"Deciding to get back together with someone is a complicated & difficult decisions. Just remember that the person you are getting back together with is the same person who, not longer before, looked you in your beautiful face, took full stock of you & all your qualities, and told you that he was no longer in need of your company"

Josh Groban - Remember When It Rained [HD]

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when you’re going to start again?
from waking up in the morning
thinking of the past, of yesterday
of the bad memories, of good ones
then thinking of today…
what can you expect for today?
or is there anything to expect?
maybe just leave it like whatever happens, happens
better be on the safe side
than to expect and get hurt in the end
why does it have to be complicated
when it can be done nice and simple?
don’t know, maybe just thinking too much
when there’s nothing to think about
now, back to the question..
how to start your day?
still a question...

Oh Holy Night - Mariah Carey CHRISTMAS SPECIAL live

Simply amazing...just love her voice!!

LSE Annual Dinner 2010

Can't get to bed. Again. None of this matters~

1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? - Closed
2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? - No.. I finish whats meant to be a 3 day supply in one go
3. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? - Out, unless the powers out
4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before? - Yes.. how juvenile
5. Do you like to use post-it notes? - Yes but they end up all over the place
6. Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? - Sometimes
7. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees? - Would I rather get clawed to death or stung? Hmm.
8. Do you have freckles? - A little
9. Do you always smile for pictures? - ABSOLUTELY!! hehehe
10. What is your biggest pet peeve? - I actually don't know what a "pet peeve" is.
11. Do you ever count your steps when you walk? - Yes..if i don't i will fall b'cos of miss steps
12. Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing? - Yes..
13. Do you chew your pens and pencils? - I borrow so technically "yours" being someone elses, YES..haha..sorry guys~
14. How many people have you slept with this week? - None
15. What size is your bed? - King size
16. What is your Song of the week? - Emimem feat Lil Wayne - No Love
17. Is it okay for guys to wear pink? - Only if I am in love with him.
18. Do you still watch cartoons? - yup
19. Whats your least favorite movie? - Anything Star-trek related.
20. Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some? - In a bottle of peanut butter
21. What do you drink with dinner? - Water..
22. What do you dip a chicken nugget in? - Tomato sauce
23. What is your favorite food? - Wantan Mee..hehehe
24. What movies could you watch over and over and still love? - Leap Year
25. Last person you kissed/kissed you? - my niece, Phoebe
26. Were you ever a boy/girl scout? - yes
26. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? - What kind of magazine?
27. Can you change the oil on a car? - I can do a re-fill
28. Favorite kind of sandwich? - Egg sandwich
29. Best thing to eat for breakfast? - Egg! Sausage! Maggie mee~
30. What is your usual bedtime? - 3am - 5am
31. Are you lazy? - Sometimes
32. When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? - Tinkerbelle
33. How many languages can you speak? - 3
34. Which are better legos or lincoln logs? - Lego. They have Lego Land. I don't see no Lincoln Log-Land.
35. Who is better...Leno or Letterman? - Larry King
36. Ever watch soap operas? - Nop
37. Dance in the shower? - No I might slip
38. Do you think musicals are cheesy? - Yes, I cannot sit through one
39. Is Christmas stressful? - No. It's magic.
40. Ever eat a pierogi? - Whats that? Sounds korean. Or portugese.
41. Favorite type of fruit pie? - Banana Pie.
42. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? - TV presenter, interior design..
43. Take a vitamin daily? - I forget. Everyday I forget.
44. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? - Whichever.. They all sell Mustard in bulk.
45. Cheetos Or Fritos? - CHEETOS
46. Ever hear of the group Tres Bien? - No but they must be good
47. Ever take dance lessons? - No
48. DJ or band, at a wedding? - DJ
49. Ever won a contest? - emmm...maybe YES, maybe NO..i don't remember..
50. Do you want to get married? - Yes! Definitely!!
51. Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? - I have. It worked.
52. Do you want kids? - 3 junior me's.. ;)
53. Whats your favorite color? - Blue
54. Do you miss anyone right now? - Miss Him so badly..need a hug..huhuhu~

Dear God,

It has been a year. I looked almost knowing already..maybe that was you god. Even though I have someone now, finding out hurt me. Is it just the feeling of rejection haunting me? I know we wouldn't have been good for each other. Someone loves me very much now, Yet, I can’t seem to completely let go of Him. How do I move on and heal?

Suddenly I begin to feel him near me, but it hurts to see thats he’s really so far away, more each day. I need to say somethings to him, I need to kiss him again, I need him in my arms once more, I need to see his face when I’m lying next to him. I’m afraid of never seeing him again. I want to hear Nick Cave’s “Into my Arms” without crying. Please lead his way with your guiding light right into the happines path, and help me to forget him…or bring him back, I promise to do my best and to learn from my mistakes, mistakes that made me lose him. I know he hasn’t forget me yet so..send an angel to whisper in his ear each night that I love him and that I want him to be happy…even if it’s not with me.

Amen...sob sob~

Kau katakan cinta gunakan akal
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang menyangkal
Bagaimana nak kekal
Kau katakan cinta gunakan minda
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang tak percaya
Bagaimana nak bahagia



Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu
Tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa



(Rap)
Dan aku cuba sedaya upaya
Telah ku usaha dengan sepenuh jiwa
Bagaimana hendak ku lupa
bayangan wajahmu selalu di depan mata
harum baumu masih dapat ku hidu
Bagaimana ingin aku membencimu
Jikalau setiap hari merindu
Sekiranya derita merinduimu itu sebenarnya bahagia..
Aku pilih derita..



Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Mungkinkah esok atau lusa walau biarpun lama
Akan ku biar tiada ku tetap kan setia
Entah bila akan tiba sampai jua harimu yang sama
Esok seperti semalaman yang tak berubah

(Ulang) (2x)
Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula
Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula

(Rap)
Seandainya kau berada di depan mata
Mudah untuk aku berkata-kata
Supaya dapatku melihat seraut wajahmu
Walaupun belum tentu kau mahu bertemu
Apalagi memandangku
Setelah ku turutkan segala kemahuan kau mainkan perasaan
Begitu mudah kau ucapkan terimalah saja kenyataan..Aku masih terkilan
Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

(Rap)
Jika kau dapat memahami hati seorang perindu
Baru kau tahu derita hatiku
Jika suatu hari nanti giliran kau merindu
Baru kau ingat derita diriku
Segala yang berlaku bukan kemahuanku
Apa gunanya bahgia
Jikalau bahagia bersamamu hanyalah untuk sementara waktu
Aku pilih derita merinduimu

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

Blurry me~

I'm Taking chances
I wear my heart on a sleeve
I'm walking backwards into the future
This world is getting too deep

I'm not sure if I really want to
I'm not sure what this all means, anymore~

I Loike~~

For the past few days I've been googling on Blackberry Torch 9800 (besides thinking of my choices on love life hehehe). This hand phone really caught my attention. It looks sooo sophisticately beautiful to me!! I just can't get my eyes off it..sigh~ Maybe i can put that in my Christmas wish list since Christmas is around the corner...hehehehe

Christmases When You Were Mine

Taylor Swift - Christmases When You Were Mine

Please take down the misletoe
Cause I don't wanna think about that right now
Cause everything I want is miles away
In a snow covered little town
My momma's in the kitchen, worrying about me
Season's greetings, hope you're well
Well I'm doing alrightIf you were wondering
Lately I can never tell

I know this shouldn't be a lonely time
But there were Christmases when you were mine

I've been doing fine without you, really
Up until the nights got cold
And everybody's here, except you, baby
Seems like everyone's got someone to hold
But for me it's just a lonely time
Cause there were Christmases when you were mine

Merry Christmas everybody
That'll have to be something I just say this year
I'll bet you got your mom another sweater
And were your cousins late again
When you were putting up the lights this year
Did you notice one less pair of hands

I know this shouldn't be a lonely time
But there were Christmases when I didn't wonder how you are tonight
Cause there were Christmases when you were mine

You were mine