Dear God,

It has been a year. I looked almost knowing already..maybe that was you god. Even though I have someone now, finding out hurt me. Is it just the feeling of rejection haunting me? I know we wouldn't have been good for each other. Someone loves me very much now, Yet, I can’t seem to completely let go of Him. How do I move on and heal?

Suddenly I begin to feel him near me, but it hurts to see thats he’s really so far away, more each day. I need to say somethings to him, I need to kiss him again, I need him in my arms once more, I need to see his face when I’m lying next to him. I’m afraid of never seeing him again. I want to hear Nick Cave’s “Into my Arms” without crying. Please lead his way with your guiding light right into the happines path, and help me to forget him…or bring him back, I promise to do my best and to learn from my mistakes, mistakes that made me lose him. I know he hasn’t forget me yet so..send an angel to whisper in his ear each night that I love him and that I want him to be happy…even if it’s not with me.

Amen...sob sob~