He Proposed!!

I met a guy...well, not met la hehe..i known him since i was still budak hingusan (that's what he said) lagi. We started to communicate again (thanx to DJJ!) and eventually started dating again.

Last night, like usual he always called me before we go to bed but last night was a bit different. Surprisingly he called me so early but i'm not that surprise la..haha...i'm being exaggerate..LOL!!..so we've talked la about how's our days and all...then all of sudden he proposed to me again!! FOR THE 2ND TIME!! OMG!! It was all very exciting and although he is everything I’ve ever wanted, I’m now getting scared the proposal came too soon. Am I just being paranoid? He is so fantastic. I keep having to pinch myself that this could be happening to me. But then i haven't give him any answer yet. I need to think thoroughly about everything because i really need to know what i want actually. It's not that i don't want to be with him, it's just that i have doubts about my feelings. Sigh~

Next month he will be coming over with his family to meet my family. So probably i will get engage by next year...hmm...i need to do so much things again. I need to settle things with my then fiance (yes! I am still attached with him..fyi..). Also i need to ask myself if i really want this or not. I can't just listen to what my friends and families says..because in the end, it's me who's getting marry. Not them. So gurls, no offence ya...*wink wink*

I guess i need to think carefully and i hope everything's will go smoothly...especially confronting Him about this. God, please guide me with all this..help me to stay strong...sigh~...susah jua kan. The thing is, i still love and care for Him..this is what makes me can't decide..but i can't just keep quiet right..i need to confront him and tell him all my feelings. If he still ignore me, than that's it la. I'm moving on and maybe move to wherever my boyfriend is. So gurls, please pray for me and support me..hehehe...

That's it for now. Mau pegi police station dulu to pay my summon..LOL!! Nanti tutup lagi..hehehe..will update again soon.. *wink wink*

Toodles~