Sometimes, I can't fall asleep because I think about him, and even when I'm not trying to, my mind wanders and somehow it always gets back to him. I would think that talking to him might make it worse. It's just isn't fair why i have to always deal with all this heart breaking. Life is hard when you are one who loves, one who only knows how to love. I share love with the world around me, strangers on the street, those who I see in need every day, but those who are most dear to me receive the deepest love I have to give. When that love is disrespected, mistreated, unappreciated, and outright trampled upon with no regard for the heart that gives it unconditionally, it hurts so deeply. I'm not sure even my written words could begin to express it adequately.
I believe in forgiveness. I will continue to love unconditionally, regardless. I have always believed that those who will need forgiveness at any point in life should be quick to forgive without the need for someone to ask for it. That does not do much for the pain that is caused by the lack of the return of the unconditional love given, however. I just don't know how long i can keep up with this. It's just very hard to not to think about it.
