Missing~

Today i feel a bit "jiwang"..i feel so lonely and that makes me think of him. I miss him so much..looking back my pix with him makes me even more sad. I Can't numb my feelings. I'm just so tired doing that everyday..it gives me headache..

Going online with my lappy toppy is the only thing i can do. While surfing the net, i stumble into this sad-yet-meaningful poems..

I will never forget the days we once had
The days when you were everything to me
My mind used to tell me we'd be together forever
But now I realize that was all a big dream
The feelings I have for you will never go
I wish I could take back that one regretful day
The day when I willingly let you slide from my arms
Never did I think of the astonishing pain of regrets
That I would once have to live through
The sight of you in someone else's arms
Makes my heart shatter into a million pieces
I sometimes wonder if you still think of me
Or if to you, I'm just a face in the crowd
I wish so very much that one day we can have it all back
But for now, I'll sit here silently
Remembering all the memories we once shared
Everyday my love grows much stronger
Hoping that one day you will feel the same
And put back the pieces of my broken heart

-Crystal Holtz